I'm blogging again. Will people get tired if i blog everyday? nah...they'll be even happier. oh yea. Happy Valentine's Day people!! hope you have a happy valentine's!! well, i noe i didn't really have a happy one. y do i hear heartbeats in my ear? it's like thumping. ok never mind. i just posted 2 days ago. i feel as if my life is very disorganized rite now. jus got back like 2 tests at one go today. my god. have you ever heard the sound of glass breaking? that's how it sounded when my heart crashed to like a million pieces. Why is everyone around me so smart? they make me feel so inferior. got history common test and math class test back. History was already depressing enough. and math had to make it worse. What is wrong with me? i seriously think i need help. should i go see the counsellor? nah...i'm not THAT depressed. but i m disappointed. i thought i should have gotten at least 1 mark higher than my previous math test. cos i did it with so much confidence. ok so maybe next time i should lower my self esteem so as not to make the disappointment even worse. history was sort of expected cos i didn't do it with any confidence at all. i was a little stunned at the question, i was like "wad is this" for a while. before i realized i jus skimmed through that particular part. y m i such a failure at everything? sec 1 was like so much better. at least my grades wasn't that low. my grades dropped alot. y....ahhhhhhhhhh.
i'm like so angry with myself now. got the don't feel like living feeling. i'm stoning in front of the ci yu shou ce now. not making out wad i'm reading. Blasting music. Hey Mickey!!! reminds me of ms vicky. so fun!!! we were so high after pe n started singing hey vicky. at least the music made me happier. a tiny weeny bit. ok glenda think happy. think DANCEDANCEDANCE. YEA. hey. DANCE makes me happy. can't wait for chingay. wonder how fun it'll be. i hope u'll be much more fun than rehearsal. not the make up part. ok maybe the make up made everyone mad. especially tricia pao. it felt as if she jus poured the whole box of blusher on me. ok box is not the right word. but i hav no idea wad that thing is called. hahahaha. that was funny. HILARIOUS. then rite before we performed, geraldine n i were like singing all that funny high pitched chinese songs. n it's particularly those gu dai ones...hahahaha. jus thinking of it makes me laugh. yay! i made myself happy. ok that sounded weird. hahaha. DANCEROCKS! can't wait for dance tomorrow. my life will be much happier. n there's not only dance tomorrow, there's also DANCE tomorrow!! yay! no more recorders!!! finally!!! nicole choreograghed some moves. she suggested ban yao. quite a creative idea. i'm very sure no one in the class will add that. ok i don't think shu zhen will. so yea. i like her steps. i've never tried choreographing so i'm gonna try abit. i like the song she chose too. omg nicole's like so gonna get an A. i'll probably get like C... my whole group has all the nice dancers. i'm sure we'll all do well!!! listening to music really works. i'm not sad anymore. i even let my mother sign those horribly disgusting papers. hahaha. i'm jus gonna forget bout them n work super hard for all my other tests.. there's something wrong with this thing. it's suddenly very slow. like the words pop out 3 sec after i typed it. ok this is frustrating. shall go n do my tll hw then nap for like 15 mins then eat dinner then go tll. oh gosh, it's gonna be a long long night....tomorrow got ting xie. haven't studied yet.ahhhhh i have to study for the tiniest thing in my life. otherwise i'll be a total failure. without any achievements at all. arghhhh. still doing my tll hw. wth. wad is wrong with me. y does it take me so long to jus finish a compo? n i havent even found the person i admire most. my life is sooo incomplete and disorganized.
Labels: Happy days
got me singing like, nananana everyday, 1:47 PM.
